This scene is so fucked up. Like, not even the choking or the batshit chairtossing, just the way he emotionally responds to Asuka in general.
Shinji is NOT emotionally equipped to bond with people. The abandonment issues with his father, emotional trauma, depression, and misanthropy are all mushed together in this awful mess of wanting someone to connect with him so he has no way of failing, but not wanting someone in his space. Wanting friends and family, but not wanting any sort of negative emotions clouding these relationships. Wants someone to support him and his truckload of issues, but having the person have easily conquerable obstacles for him to help with in turn.
Kaworu was a precision Shinji-bomb; appearing at the exact time Shinji needed him, giving Shinji the exact sort of emotional response he wanted, giving Shinji clear signals so that Shinji feels he can reach across the bridge between them without any risk of failing and screwing the relationship up. Weird, preternatural good-naturedness; Kaworu just isn’t the sort of person to take his negative feelings out on Shinji, which is appealing. Kaworu didn’t HAVE any problems; he’s just cool and gay. Cool gay guy in love with Shinji. The entire purpose of Kaworu was to outline what Shinji wants.
And here, in this scene, Asuka is the exact opposite of what Shinji wants. She refuses to connect. She takes her bad mood out on him. She shuts off his attempts to connect with her. She outlines everything Shinji is scared of and compounds his anxieties even more. Her problems are MASSIVE, way more severe than Shinji’s, and he can’t do anything to help with it, especially in such a weak emotional state. Shinji’s reaction is a glorious movement of fulfilment to the horrible, quiet pain of the last handful of episodes.
The ending was super confusing and needs a manual to keep the canon straight but WOW this really paid the character arc off. 10/10
aigis is literally so sweet, a dog bites her and she apologises to the dog for having a hard robot hand and then worries about it afterwards. aigis is perfect and nobody can ever prove otherwise.
by the way did I ever tell y’all about the time I got a blank message from nobody, sent on new year’s eve in 1969, when the internet didn’t exist?
because that happened
What the fuck
Or maybe its from 2069, when we’ve developed the technology to send data to the past. You sent yourself a blank message as a test but as the email address you used to send it doesnt exist yet, it came up as no sender
OKAY KIDS, LET’S LEARN ABOUT THE UNIX EPOCH
So back in the early days of computers, when we were trying to build clocks to keep all our computers in sync, we tried a bunch of different ways to synchronize them in ways that both normal people could use and programmers could utilize.
We just tried saying “The current time is THIS date” and just storing that date as some text, but while that was easy for humans, it was a bunch of different numbers that worked together in funny ways and computers don’t play nice with a bunch of random, arbitrary rules.
Not much worked, until we realized that we needed a BASELINE to compare against, and a way to represent the current time that covers everybody. So we came up with Unix time, because Unix was the style at the time. Essentially, Unix time represents any given time by saying “How many seconds ago was 12:00 AM on January 1, 1970 in Iceland somewhere?”. Recent enough to keep the numbers relatively small, far enough that nothing computer-y would fall before it, and consistent enough that there’d be no discrepancy based on where you are.
So what happens when you see the date “December 31, 1969” on a buggy message like this is that the computer received a bunch of zeroes by mistake and went “Oh, this must be a message!” Then when it tried to interpret it, it got to the date, found a zero, and said “Zero seconds since the Unix Epoch? I’ll round down - this was sent at the last second of New Year’s Eve, 1969! They’ll be so happy to finally get their blank message.”
And then the computer traipsed off on its merry way, because computers are fucking ridiculous.
Have a gif of Michiru giggling. If you don’t think that’s the most adorable shit then get out of my face.
this makes me feel very comforted and i need that tonight
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